presence of God

I remember being a junior in high school and going on a winter retreat. it was cold and we were going to a local retreat center. i went into it with the worst attitude. i didnt want to be there.
through the course of the weekend God broke me down. you know [...]

conformed

I was talking to a friend last night that i have been blessed to know. This is a person who i feel like i can be so open with and she will encourage me and challenge me to be more and do more.
We were talking about some thinking patterns that i have gotten myself [...]

it is not about me

the other day i was supposed to have coffee with a person that i respect a lot. we had been trying to get a meeting on the calendar for quite some time now. i was really excited about it. and about 2 hours before we were going to meet she calls me. [...]

red plastic

if the person offering asks “would you like a piece of red plastic” it is not a good sign.

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“one of those”

tonight is another one of those nights.
a cant get to sleep night.  my mind is racing and i cant slow it down.
proof that transitions and change really mess me up.

the most unproductive day

Last night i went to bed as normal. followed my in bed by 12 rule and was off to a great start. at around 2:45 i was startled awake by hail. it sounded like it was about to break the window and come in my room.
i got out of bed [...]

wide eyed

it is 1:36 am and i am wide awake. i cant shut my brain off.
my mind is consumed with too many things. this has been a recurring event for the last few days. but each day gets later and later.
i am thinking about…
my wedding.
chad.
my friendships.
my job.
how my mom is going to meet [...]

i like….

getting up early.
i rarely do it, but there is something about the morning that is so calm. not too many people are out and it is silent and somber. i usually open my window and turn down my music and just be.
eating a thin crust pizza.
i really only like this from Papa John’s [...]

unconditional love

love is something that i have always had a problem with receiving. i cant tell you why. i dont even think it would be a valid reason if i could. it is just something that is hard for me to comprehend.
unconditional love is far more confusing for me. i am not [...]

empowering grace

about a year ago i was on the receiving end of some really unexpected grace. i failed in a pretty big way…and confessed it. i was so scared of what this person was going to think. she had the power to fire me, and to kick my but…and it would have been [...]

life insurance

today we had someone come in and meet with us about life insurance. Church of the Highlands purchased it for us and we had to declare the beneficiary. so it was all explained to me. i am 22 and have never thought about life insurance.
it kind of makes me a little sick [...]

the best $32 i have spent

Today i was going through my typical blog reading…reading the blogs in my feed. and i knew that this week would probably mess me up because of the group that is with Compassion International.
confession- i have been the person to know the need and turn my eyes. i have been on missions and [...]

girl crush

yesterday was a great and productive day. i dont think i got online once.
it was very productive in the manner of the wedding. in one day we found the lady that is going to do our cake…and i am so excited about it. she is an artist…
we looked at [...]

denim is the devil

This sunday we started a sunday night service. i am actually sitting in sound check right now. this is our 4th service for the day and will be with us probably forever. it is a duplicate service from Sunday mornings….except we get to wear jeans. yes, i said it, church of [...]

R-E-S-P-E-C-T

the other day i was watching someone. i am observer. i watch people. and if you are being watched you may end up in my “spybook” or a blog at some point.
but this particular person that i was watching is someone that i know very well. she has gained [...]